Pregnancy dreams and U2 Eucharists

Three good things from my weekend:

• Dinner with k (of K and S the lesbian couple I met at church). This weekend because S was doing all kinds of sports stuff I had dinner with K. (She was a sports widow). It was really fun. And good again for me to spend time with older wiser christian lesbians who attend church.
• I went to a U2 Eucharist. Or a communion service with all U2 music at that new church I've been going to. The music was played by a professional band and the worship team. It was REALLY well done. It would have been a great service to bring a visitor to. I felt so much better about church after it.
  
• Then after a great nap I went for a three hour walk with "e". And this was good because: Sunday's can be hard for me, I had had some fleeting self hate thoughts for a bit this afternoon because I thought she had or was going to bail on me. But she didn't. The exercise was really good for my mental health and it was a REALLY beautiful day.
  

The only other thing I wanted to make note of from my weekend was that I had another baby dream. For the years when I was self hating my baby dreams would involve abandoning, hurting, or trying to give away a baby. I wrote about one where I yelled at a guy to stop washing the baby with the silverware.

In this dream I was pregnant. Everyone was shocked I was pregnant, they knew I was gay and couldn't figure it out. (Perhaps I dreampt this because we talked about how lesbians get pregnant in support group last week.) I was VERY pregnant. Big belly and baby moving some. I think my whole family was at some event, like a cousins wedding or something. Afterwards my dad was parking and re-parking the car. My mom was driving a car by herself to some counselor. And I drove off to connect with some girl who I liked (She was a combination of two people I like or have liked).

I got to her house and was trying to be all covert walking in the side door of the house because there was a party going on. This girl said she was 90% open to meeting up. And then she was talking about breakfast and she was wondering if that was too much time. I have no idea what breakfast had to do with time. Then I woke up.

Crazy dream. And yes I would guess that there's a lot of new things I'm birthing these days. But wow, am I glad I'm not actually pregnant! Although everyone else seems to be having kids these days. I went and looked up pregnancy dreams here. Which said it may be "may indicate birth of a new project or idea in one’s life". Um. Do you think so?

I'd rather be an aunt, second cousin, or family friend right now I think.