Here's my one piece of sharing from the weekend. I went to my parents house. I had a very short conversation with my mom about Christmas. Short, because I think it was hard for both of us. Earlier in the summer I mentioned I'd like to bring Lo for Christmas. This weekend she told me that the family isn't ready for me to bring her.
Lo's birthday is on the 27th I'm certainly not going to miss it and I want to be with her on Christmas. So, it looks like we're going to spend Christmas here in my town. I haven't officially told them yet. I was just clear I had to be with Lo on her birthday.
I've been fluctuating a lot on how I feel. I have never not been with my family for Christmas. I cried multiple times about it, but of course I'm also pmsing so who knows if I'm really that sad. I know they aren't really rejecting either me or Lo, but it feels like it.
What's helped is now I'm super excited to have my own Christmas with Lo. We will have a ton of fun on our own. And perhaps I can visit the family around New Years instead by myself.
So far the best advice I've gotten is that my friend "satte" said that maybe I should ask them if there's another time that they would be open to meeting her that is not around the holidays. So perhaps I'll ask about that.