I'm going to post this and pretend it is a post for tomorrow so I can be lazy and not post tomorrow. :)
Today the only boy I ever told or thought I might have had a crush on, found me on facebook. It was weird. I saw his profile and thought, "O he's hilarious" followed by the thought "What the heck was that?"
I remember trying to make myself think about him as much as I did some random girl. O and when I was sitting in Starbucks that day long ago of my telling him, I said: "I think I used to have a crush on you." He looked at me entirely baffled like it was the most weird thing he ever had heard. And it was, because it was like play dress up crush. Like I want to have a crush on a boy because I should kind of crush. Whereas now I have these "Holy crap! I don't know what to do and am trying to slow it down.... unbidden, and sometimes unwanted kinds of crushes."
These are things to ponder when I go to Minnesota for the funeral on Monday and LA next week for work. Actually there are other more important things to ponder at a funeral like, "Thank God I'm alive, and if I died tomorrow what would I wish to do today?" Which I might add is a very very dangerous question. And what would you guess my anwser to that is? Hmmm.
Anyway, he and another friend of mine (a girl) live in LA. I may see them, or maybe not...In the meantime I've got some christmas parties to go to and a major nap to take, O and a $150.00 gift card to Amazon to spend. It's been quite the day.