The strongest feeling after talking to my parents is unsafe. Not fear really but a desire to pull away to protect my heart and not share again. I know that's odd. Is it odd? They didn't threaten me but their judgment and disapproval is so strong. I am also pretty angry, since anger is sometimes a protective feeling and a natural reaction to feeling judged, it's to be expected. And yes I will find healthy ways, as always, to write and paint and talk it out.
I did not tell them by the way. They flat out asked "what type of relationship is your relationship" I said "I am dating her" cause I wasn't going to lie.
In spite of the fact that I am a 35 year old adult my parents still asked me if I was having sex (or something like that). I told them I wouldn't ever feel comfortable talking about that with anyone. Seriously that is just inappropriate! For goodness sake it's none of their business. They are so focused on sex because to them it is the worst sin in all the world. I bet it's worse than murder to them. They talked about temptation and sin and scripture... My mom said "I don't know where you learned this was all right." The call ended by them saying "We love you and we are praying for you." To which I responded "I love you and I am praying for you."
I talked to Lo and then Zuzu. It helped. Zuzu had some good advice which was just don't talk to them about this anymore for a while. I didn't plan on telling them tonight it just happened. Lo said it gets easier over time.
I anticipate because of this I may drift even further from the family. I am so glad I waited until this year of my life to come out. Hmmm. Maybe I will spend holidays elsewhere this year.