Last night was a curious night in every way. The weather was curious, lightning in January. My companion was curious. And the conversation we had and it's impact on me was curious.
Hung out last night at a wine bar with candles and dim lighting and a tour de force woman across from me (yes, I know I just used a noun as an adj., and no, it wasn't a date). I have never had a conversation quite like we had. And I don't have any language to explain it. It felt a little like someone just dropped me into Alice in wonderland. It wasn't what we talked about because that was somewhat basic it was how she talked I think.
I fell asleep and as much as you can be aware while sleeping, I felt different while sleeping. It was like part of me was still awake and still in the conversation. Someone called me at midnight, a number I didn't know. I didn't anwser but wished I had because then I wondered who it was. I slept both hard and lightly and I woke up at 4:15 a.m., 6:30 a.m. and 7:30 a.m. and I didn't feel tired at all, I just woke up and then went back to sleep.
Today I feel different. I don't know how to explain how I feel different. It's like whatever conversation altered something in me neither in a bad or good way just in an "it just did" way. But I don't even know how I changed, or what about the night changed me, and I'm a bit baffled by that. I know this is totally not specific and probably doesn't make any sense, but I just am trying to observe something that baffles me.
How many times in a person's life will they have a conversation that changes them?