I am sensitive and fairly impacted by what others say and think. This year (or maybe the last two years) have been the first where I have been able to hear other's thoughts, and think to myself they have good points, but I see things differently. It feels really good to hear, respect, and take some comments in and let the others go. A new thing for me.
I just thought I would take a minute to itemize all the various voices in my life right now and respect them and their radically different perspectives.
- Zuzu (and any friends that throw in) usually helps me see me, and this christian bubble, from afar. Allows me to take a step back and question pretty much everything I've ever thought.
- j, l, and s: In the christian bubble with me and a part of it. Really similar to me theologically and in my faith community. Help me value and see my longings for my faith, God, and values along with my growth in knowing me. No judgment on this journey of getting to know me and my sexuality. No judgment no matter where I end up. They do value things typical of christians: monogamy, the avoidance of lust, scripture.... but are no where near where my family or some other friends are.
- b: Somewhere between zuzu and j-l-s. Pulling away from church stuff, but not God. Sortof a middle of the road person.
- My family, my church, and a ton of other friends who don't know what's going on in me, but who I have had general conversations with about "topics" :). They love me AND for many of them homosexuality is sin and I am probably in danger. I still hear their voices. I know they think differently than me.
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I love you and your blog. - Zu
i hope i am more helpful than harmful in your journey. i do love our conversations. they are good for my journey.
b.
b. you are quite helpful. I may have taking the first step this weekend towards what we talked about when we went wine tasting. :)
am I j? and did I really say you have to have constant conversation with friends? I don't remember putting it that way... but I do think I meant that you like to run things by people and you let things form inside yourself, then put them out there and let them form some more (often related to what others say/think) what do you think? Glad to hear that you're able to let others think differently though. that is exciting. i love you and your blog, too!
Thanks for voicing your edit to what I heard. :) And always for the affirmation.
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